@Miss Cosmic Fyi I deleted your other post since I saw you wanted it deleted. Admins and discussions mods can delete posts. You can report a post if you want it deleted or message me on my wall. Just so you know what to do next time 🙂

Thank you, I didn't know how to delete my one post. I didn't think someone would delete for me.

@HerbiMetal Same here. I haven’t found a person I have felt understood by or compatible with in reality as of yet. The closest thing to what I would want in someone admittedly is someone like my character Hannah (if she were a guy), but then again, this is probably just due to the sense of mutual understanding I would feel between us since her personality, likes, and dislikes are so similar to mine. Since I am so often misunderstood, I seek someone who would accept and understand my just as I am, quirks and all, while also thinking on a similar wavelength to mine. Of course, that person should also have some strengths that could balance out my flaws to keep the relationship healthy. There is also a saying that you have to love and accept yourself first before anyone else can.

It was probably a joke by the devs.Kyle has shown to being attracted to women in Bebe's Boobs Destroy Society and Hooked On Monkey Fonics.

I think Kyle is just a kid being a kid. As I've stated before, maybe he just doesn't care. He IS 10.

@Miss Cosmic not sure why Fandom doesn't people to delete their own posts I think they should. But mods and admins can so we can help you out there.

@Peregrina So u also don't consider yourself a aromantic right? It is tough finding the right person. But it is much better to wait it out than to try to make something work with someone who's not compatible.

@HerbiMetal no, I am definitely not aromantic. I fantasize about and enjoy the idea of love and romantic companionship too much. What I crave the most is that feeling of emotional intimacy with someone who truly understands me on a deeper level. It’s always been hard for me to connect with others since I never truly knew how to express myself, and writing to others online is much easier for me due to the anonymity.

In person interactions often seem more difficult to me because there always seems to be more potential for misunderstandings if you fail to read body language and gestures correctly or conversely, unintentionally give others the wrong vibe yourself. I tended to be very shy growing up and feel I missed out on a lot of my adolescence being guarded all the time and hiding myself from the world in fear of rejection.

Writing my stories allows me to open up and be vulnerable as I create the reality I wish I could have lived, with a best friend like my character Hannah or a boyfriend like Cason or Anthony. Hannah truly does represent that soul friend I wish I could have had growing up, since she and I are very much alike personality-wise. Mia is more so a recreation of the timid, apprehensive girl I was for much of my life who just wanted a place to belong. Her physical appearance is even based upon my own. Reading through what I wrote about her was actually therapeutic for me because it allowed me to better understand my past motivations and why I behaved the way I did. I always felt strange to others and as though I was the one person who didn’t fit into social groups, but perhaps that was just me trying to assimilate myself into a white-dominated, Western world that I have never been a part of.

I will confess though that sometimes I feel a little bad about myself when I see even my own favorite fictional characters, like Scott Malkinson, finding romantic companionship and acceptance from others much earlier than I did, as it makes me feel like I am behind everyone else in terms of my place in life. When even a fictional fourth grader can find someone to care about them before you do, it makes you feel a little alone you know? In all honesty, the most social interaction I have had outside of my immediate family since this pandemic started is with the people I have met on forums online, since my classes are all being held virtually through Zoom. Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me or if I am just the abnormal one in a world of common people.

I just wish I knew what it felt like to be wanted or genuinely cared about by someone for once, and to not feel like the last option when everyone’s else has no other choice.

@Peregrina I get what you mean. Well they're fictional characters and plenty of people also don't develop relationships or close friendships in adulthood. Ah I really wish I could be friends with you in real life. We can always chat if u want. I think you and me will find great companionship together if we had found each other in real life.

@HerbiMetal I’m sorry for the emotional content of my posts. Life has been hard for me throughout the year 2020 and sometimes my feelings overwhelm me. I promise not to bombard you with lengthy posts about my moods anymore, however.

It makes sense for Kyle to be asexual. going off of his character and how he’s acted in the show, but in the episode Bebe’s boobs, Kyle acts like an ape with the other kids over her boobs. and remember, Kyle did have the hits for Heidi that one time. he reminded us of it in the episode where they hunt down the president in the SP woods. so, maybe he switches between heterosexual and asexual? he told us he isn’t the romantic type, but we see that he has displayed heterosexual attractions. he could be asexual, or he could be heterosexual. definitely aromantic though.